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The Musings of a Digital Vagabond

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This is actually a piece that I had written some time ago, but I felt it wasn’t as well exposed, so I thought I’d give  it to you guys one more time this friday, maybe this will make it into the gimpy monologues also…

I belong to a land that time has long since forgotten,
a land filled with hospitals, metal cages, and rooms full of invalids.
I come from a life whose prognosis was always grim,
and now that things have changed,
I mingle amongst the people who think that I’ve lost my mind, that I am somehow deranged.
The metal cages are gone, the rooms full of invalids have disappeared,
and invisible walls have come to take their place.
Looked upon with a mild neglect, I have never found nor experienced true love.
The streets are filled…

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Your chance to save a life:


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After my adventures yesterday, being hooked to an iv for a few hours is boring me to death. Literally. To death…

So, to add a little excitement to my day, I am depending on all of you. Please answer the following question:

What is the most exciting thing that has ever happened to you? (Please no crap about getting married or having kids or whatever, unless you did so while skydiving)

I’m an idiot


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I can be a touch impulsive at times. Mostly times involving my independence. Today (insert flashback music here)…

Setting: Family home, me in my power wheelchair, which has been flashing an ‘error, bad cable’ message for a few days. Feeling slightly better after my sick days, with a genius idea for supper. Husband won’t be home for a while and kids about to get out of school soon. Need a few groceries.

Act 1: Guess hubby won’t be back in time to pick up the stuff. Yeah, I know there’s that error message, but the stores only a few blocks away, I can make it.

Act 2: Screw getting dressed or putting makeup on. It will just take a sec and these pjs look like regular clothes./em>

Act 3: Ok, so it’s cold and rainy. Wear a jacket.

Act 4: Riding along, being careful. Turn onto a busier street with no sidewalk. About 20 feet down..,

Act 5: Wheelchair dies.

Act 6: Helpful strangers, city workers, neighbors, police officers, fire department, dropped and rescued glove (most romance I’ve seen in years 😉 ) etc.

Act 7: I’m home, one still flashing error on wheelchair, slightly less amazing dinner being prepared…

To spew or not to spew…


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I’m sick. Yeah, I have all the regular disability crap, I also am sick, sick. You know, throat sore, coughing, weakness, runny nose, and nausea and the loss of appetite that comes with it.

I could take some OTC anti-nausea liquid, but has anyone tried that stuff? If you aren’t already throwing up, you will be if you taste that.

Of course there is a palatable alternative, which not only reduces/eliminates nausea, but also stimulates appetite, but unfortunately it’s illegal in my state. Is there anyone out there who can tell me why?

To prude for her own good…


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A good friend told me once that another loved one (can’t get too specific here, sorry) was “too prude for her own good”.

I fear I am becoming that. Or I fear I was becoming that. Maybe still am. I don’t know, but I don’t want to be that.

My biology wants me to be that.

What age is it when you turn into your mother?

Ok, so in the name of everything not prude, have a great night! I’ve got to go smoke some weed, watch some porn, and get drunk. 😉

‘Twas the Night Before St. Patrick’s


Better watch out, better not cry, better not pout; oh, and look out for this guy…

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‘Twas the night ‘fore St. Patrick’s and all through the home,

No creature did stir, except me writing this tome.

The stockings were folded and placed in their drawers

Because the wife does get angry if I leave them on floors.

The dog was nestled all snug in the bed

While visions of whatever dogs think about flew through her head.

And my wife comatose on the couch without tossing

Because dealing with me is completely exhausting.

When outside my window there arose a great sound,

I jumped from couch, stubbed my toe, then fell down.

“Stupid coffee table,” I hissed under breath

Then limped to the window, my toe feeling like death.

The moon in the sky could barely be seen

Due to our window’s layer of filth that is quite obscene.

When through the layer of dirt, I did finally spot

An Irishman flying on a gigantic shamrock.

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To be or not to be: sleepy


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So, legally I can, and do take Ambien. This is a class 4 medication. For more information on drug classifications, see this link: http://www.justice.gov/dea/druginfo/ds.shtml.

Side effects include:

Headaches
Nausea
Vomiting
Dizziness
Anterograde amnesia
Hallucinations, through all physical senses, of varying intensity
Delusions
Altered thought patterns
Ataxia or poor motor coordination, difficulty maintaining balance
Euphoria and/or dysphoria
Increased appetite
Increased or decreased libido
Impaired judgment and reasoning
Uninhibited extroversion in social or interpersonal settings
Increased impulsivity
When stopped, rebound insomnia may occur

Some people including myself experience various things like eating, driving, or performing other daily tasks while asleep.

One night my kids were brushing their teeth, and being silly, funny, fun. I made a cell phone video of it. The next day I watched the video.

I did not remember anything my beautiful, wonderful, silly kids had been doing. I would have passed a lie detector stating I did not make that video or see any of it, had it not been for my out-of-it voice in the background of the video.

I have lost many hours of my life, not to mention the fact that I’ve woken many days to trails of coconut, or other snack /weird food crumbs, which I’ve produced during episodes of sleep eating.

There are many other negative effects, and of course the addictive/dependency issue, plus the increased risk of cancer; but this drug is completely legal and okay for me to take every night.

Marijuana is illegal. It makes me sleepy, helps my spasticity (which frees me from taking additional medication), and doesn’t create complete time lapses in my memory. Explain that…

http://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zolpidem

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Hi. Or is it high? I am high. I have multiple sclerosis. Marijuana is not legal in my state. It should be. I want to run a series of posts about this topic. To do justice to the validity of the argument, I will need to get real. Very real here and let you into some parts of me that should probably remain hidden.