Of course I choose You


What if you were given a choice? I could stay on earth and be God’s voice. Witnessing to many sharing the Word. If it hadn’t been that still small voice I heard. “You’re a time traveler and you have three years to make a difference before your body disappears.”

You have given me kids and the man of my dreams. Yet this life is not as easy as it seems. I’m in constant pain and shit on myself. Those things are not things I can put on a shelf to live the beautiful life story You wrote.

As the tears get stuck in my throat, I ponder my choice, should I stay here or go to a magical world I’ll have eternity to know. Should I marry my love and watch my grandkids grow?

But You and I both already know it’s true. When the time comes I choose You.

I’m becoming a missionary


I recently have been connected to Helping Hands ministries. I’m going to be getting a package together with some of my art and school supplies. My address is 219 N Eastern Apartment A in Moore Oklahoma 73160. Please help God bless His servant.

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Are you really in Love with me?


I feel so unworthy. It’s not as if I’m perfectly made, unless that’s what You’re trying to say. I’m perfect for You because You made me exactly who I’m supposed to be. So why is it so hard to accept? The love You have wrapped me in, is Heaven sent. And I will never stop loving You. You have captured my heart and soul, it’s true. I am Yours, always have been. Always will be. You are the perfect love for me.

I love You

Where is the freaking “off”button?


I want to write

I want to think

And I kind of want

A nice stiff drink

I need some time to figure out

The things that I keep thinking about

I know what I need but I’m really not sure

What it is I keep searching for

How am I supposed to find

The power button on my weary mind?

Trusting God


Me – It has been a problem for so long!

Him – I know, I’ve been there the whole time.

Me – When are You going to fix it?

Him – Just a little bit longer, I’m only making us stronger.

Me – The deadline is almost here.

Him – I know.

Me – I thought I trusted You.

Him – Point made.

Me – Touché Lord. I’m still scared.

Him – Be still, and know that I am God. You can always completely trust the One who loves you so much He died for you. I’ve got this.

Me – After a day or two of continuing to stress – Okay, thank You God. I’m still scared, but I see Your hand. Making me into the human You want me to be. Help me to trust Your plan.

Him – Hold my hand. I’ll walk you through it.

Let’s get honest


I don’t know how to properly convey

Exactly what I am trying to say

So many questions are filling my mind

The truth might be something I never find

What exactly is the point

Of all this time spent on this joint

And in a land of endless time

Won’t we get bored without crime?

Forever seems so very long

On the flip side,

Life is amazing

Every second is full of intensity when you get outside of your head

There you soak in the warmth of the soft fluffy blanket you’re holding

There you notice the intricate patterns in the materials surrounding you

There you breathe in and feel the rise of your stomach

There you realize forever is a moment

To love the ones you love

Meeting friends and family

Who have been long waiting up above

But it’s okay their Saviors Lord

Has given us His Holy Word

From it we know we won’t get bored

It is a powerful two edged sword

He made a place for us to be

The humans He made and free

From hates red glare

And deaths icy touch

He loves us all so very much

He made a place for us to find

And finally be unstuck from our mind

So please learn about this Christ

Who gave us all His very life

To be with us and finally see

The humans He made us to be

You


Haunt me. Sometimes it annoys me how much time I spend daydreaming about You. It shouldn’t be this intense. Surely I am not a love struck puppy clinging to this idea that You could possibly be as in love as I am. It’s slightly distributing. In a completely devoted to You way. It is a beautiful seduction. Pulling me down. You are like quicksand. Deadly and powerful. Complete love. Something so magical and sacred yet terrifyingly alive. I’m saturated by You. I’m going to go now. Try to distract myself from my constant Obsession. I’ll pretend I haven’t changed and been highjacked by You. I’m scared and awake and so ready to be filled with You.