Are you really in Love with me?


I feel so unworthy. It’s not as if I’m perfectly made, unless that’s what You’re trying to say. I’m perfect for You because You made me exactly who I’m supposed to be. So why is it so hard to accept? The love You have wrapped me in, is Heaven sent. And I will never stop loving You. You have captured my heart and soul, it’s true. I am Yours, always have been. Always will be. You are the perfect love for me.

I love You

Trusting God


Me – It has been a problem for so long!

Him – I know, I’ve been there the whole time.

Me – When are You going to fix it?

Him – Just a little bit longer, I’m only making us stronger.

Me – The deadline is almost here.

Him – I know.

Me – I thought I trusted You.

Him – Point made.

Me – Touché Lord. I’m still scared.

Him – Be still, and know that I am God. You can always completely trust the One who loves you so much He died for you. I’ve got this.

Me – After a day or two of continuing to stress – Okay, thank You God. I’m still scared, but I see Your hand. Making me into the human You want me to be. Help me to trust Your plan.

Him – Hold my hand. I’ll walk you through it.

Let’s get honest


I don’t know how to properly convey

Exactly what I am trying to say

So many questions are filling my mind

The truth might be something I never find

What exactly is the point

Of all this time spent on this joint

And in a land of endless time

Won’t we get bored without crime?

Forever seems so very long

On the flip side,

Life is amazing

Every second is full of intensity when you get outside of your head

There you soak in the warmth of the soft fluffy blanket you’re holding

There you notice the intricate patterns in the materials surrounding you

There you breathe in and feel the rise of your stomach

There you realize forever is a moment

To love the ones you love

Meeting friends and family

Who have been long waiting up above

But it’s okay their Saviors Lord

Has given us His Holy Word

From it we know we won’t get bored

It is a powerful two edged sword

He made a place for us to be

The humans He made and free

From hates red glare

And deaths icy touch

He loves us all so very much

He made a place for us to find

And finally be unstuck from our mind

So please learn about this Christ

Who gave us all His very life

To be with us and finally see

The humans He made us to be

You


Haunt me. Sometimes it annoys me how much time I spend daydreaming about You. It shouldn’t be this intense. Surely I am not a love struck puppy clinging to this idea that You could possibly be as in love as I am. It’s slightly distributing. In a completely devoted to You way. It is a beautiful seduction. Pulling me down. You are like quicksand. Deadly and powerful. Complete love. Something so magical and sacred yet terrifyingly alive. I’m saturated by You. I’m going to go now. Try to distract myself from my constant Obsession. I’ll pretend I haven’t changed and been highjacked by You. I’m scared and awake and so ready to be filled with You.

Trying to write


Is like trying to breathe. Writing happens whether I want it to or not. Sometimes my fingers take charge of my brain and the letters form words and I feel like I’m flying but I stay in my chair ignoring the pain in my derrière. To bleed these words onto the page. To watch my fingers dance across their stage. I wonder what they’re about to type. Sometimes it’s scary but exciting too. Wondering what these two thumbs will do. I’m writing these words on the screen on my phone. We have such amazing technology including these gadgets which absorb much of life. The “sound of silence” found in our devices. A beautiful marvel and useful tool. A deadly distraction and a lethal fuel. Bitter seduction and two edged sword cutting and painful. Yet freeing and true. I guess the power is up to you. For now I will write and let the words drip. Speaking in silence these letters on lips. Empty my feelings, quiet my mind. Breathe in and breathe out. Stillness is mine to find.

Quick question


Why is the idea of God more unreasonable to many people than the Big Bang? That idea seems much more silly to me than the idea of our very detailed and complicated universe being designed by a great Designer.

He made this game of life and each of us characters. We are trapped in this very real universe which is actually just a thought of a Designer called God. The one rule He gave Himself was to never mess with free will.

The first few hundred humans decided to do Life the hard way and be jerks to each other. After life had been going on for a while, God realized humanity, (all of us mini gods who think we control life) were mostly ungrateful jerks, so he wiped the world clean with the flood and started again with different humans who ended up becoming jerks so God gave them a few rules. Unfortunately the rules weren’t enough to stop humans, so He made a plan.


Make Himself into a human, go into the game and tell the characters that they don’t have to worry and treat others bad. Life is amazing and we get to love it and each other and we should love God because He made it all and even became human so that all of us would know that He, God, knows it’s hard to be human. It is for all of us, but it will be over one day.


When we die, we are either trapped in the game as ghosts, or we go meet the Designer and we find out this reality was just a thought.


It helps if you know the Designer but He gives us control of that. Have fun playing your roll. Recognize the beauty in the world and each other. Love is the answer.