Reminding me that Life is hard

Convincing me that I am broken

Desperate for Your touch

Longing for release

An escape from this world of pain

Why do You wait so long?

I’m hurting and losing hope

But not faith

I know you’ll rescue me

Save me from the heartache

From the pain

From the futility of existence

From my thoughts

Be my help

See my pain

Save me agaun

Like You always do



Yes, there’s the emotional pain of abandonment and loss and rejection, of my…nevermind. I shouldn’t even talk about that heartbreak. 

Physical pain is kicking my ass at the moment. It feels like my legs are burning and being crushed at the same time, and then they spasm and I can’t describe it. From an 8 to a 10. Thankfully each only lasts a second, and they only come every 30 seconds or so. Nothing like real pain to distract you from emotional bs. 

That said, I’ll always miss you.

Real Question

Only honest answers please, I get enough bullshit to disdain it here. (Most of the time 😉 ).

Which is worse, having a severe disability, or caring for someone with one?

In other words:

Wiping someone’s ass, or needing someone to wipe yours?

Being in constant pain, or the helplessness of watching someone you love endure constant pain.

Moments when you wish for death…I guess that applies to both caregiver and the invalid.